Tuesday, February 15, 2011

"You look perplexed can I help you" the bartender asked me.
"Yeah, Jack Dorrie offered to promote my band."
"I've heard of him, you should take him up on the offer."
"Yeah, I know.  Once he starts promoting us we'll be playing all sorts of talk shows, you'll hear our songs on commercials, we're bound to become famous.  I just don't want to sell out."
"I don't think selling out is as bad as they make it out to be."
"Really?  How would you know?"
"Have you heard of the band Coconut Trap?"
"Yeah, I love their stuff.  They even got a song on one of those phone commercials.  I was afraid they'd sold out, but then they broke up."
"Yeah, I turned down an offer from Jack Dorrie because I didn't want to sell out.  Just to show me his power he put a bug in the ear of one of his buddies at an executive agency about us.  That got us played on the commercial."
"Wait, so you're John---"
"Yeah, I'm the first and only artist to ever turn down an offer from Jack Dorrie".
"So why are to bar tending?"
"Well, if we'd gotten royalties from the ad, we might have, but our record contract left us out in the cold.  It turned out if Jack Dorrie had represented us, we could have leveraged our momentum and bargained for a more lucrative record deal.  But I turned him down.
"I tried to call him back, to tell him I changed my mind.  The rest of the band was pretty pissed at me for turning him down.  He turned me down--said he found someone else to represent."
"You're kidding!"
"No, have you heard of Alexandria Rain?  Of course you have.  He picked her up when I turned him down."
"So you could have been as big as Alexandria Rain?  Why'd you break up?"
"We tried to find another publicist, but the guy we hired was just a hack.  He got us some small stuff, but nothing that impressed the record company.  In the end, the band broke up because they could never forgive me for what I did.
"If I could do it over again, I'd hire Jack.  But how I was supposed to know?  When Jack approached me, he was nobody.  Of course he's a legend in the business now.  Do you know why he's so good at what he does?
"No, I figured he was just a great salesman or something along those lines."
"Wrong. The man has no special talent.  He has good taste--that's kind of rare in certain circles.  He tries really hard to find really good music, but that's no different than the dime a dozen talent scouts that litter this city.  He has friends in high places.  Some of his buddies are advertising executives, and some of them work in television, but all of them are influential.  Turns out the guy used to barely get by.  His friends would always be asking him for help finding music.  They always liked his taste.  Jack kind of wandered aimlessly in his 20's and 30's.  10 years ago, one of his buddies told him they were always using his recommendations in commercials and told him to start selling these recommendations.  That was when he contacted me."

"Wow.  That really puts things in perspective, in fact you've changed my mind."  I put some cash on the bar to cover my tab, walked outside and made a phone call.

"Hey, yeah, listen.  I think the band should really hire Jack to represent you.
"Yeah, I think it's the right thing for you to do.
"I'm saying 'you', because I'm leaving the band.
"I'm not crazy, and you'll get over it.  Listen, I think you should get the guy from Coconut Trap to replace me.
"Yeah he's still around, he's tending the bar at the Blue Cow Pub.
"I don't know for sure if he'll go for it, but I'm betting he'd jump at the chance.
"Sure, I'll sleep on it, but I'm not going to change my mind.
"It's the right thing to do...for everyone.  Later."

I walked away from the bar, thinking, "no regrets...right?"
no regrets.

6 comments:

Alt 255 said...

Wait a minute... Did he do the right thing by walking away?

the Handrew said...

Sure, I mean, nobody wants to be a sellout, right?

Alt 255 said...

Someone's feeling cryptic...

Maybe most people actually do want to be sellouts in principle, they just don't want to think of it that way. Maybe the word "sellout" has too negative a connotation. Maybe being a sellout isn't really such a bad way to be.

Or maybe it's not even a real representation of reality at all. Maybe that's just something that jealous people say about people who've had some success. I mean, one of the biggest arguments in the study of pop music history is whether the Beatles were the biggest sellouts of all time or the greatest pop musicians of all time. Such a wild and polarized dichotomy surely speaks to the poverty of the entire inquiry.

the Handrew said...

True, I'm trying to bait you into a discussion.

The way I see it, the right thing for the rest of the band was to go on and be famous. I don't know about selling out, but they did want to sell themselves well.

The right thing for the narrator was to continue on in obscurity. I imagine him starting over with another band--focusing on trying to create good music. He knew he could live without the "success".

He also gave the bartender a second chance at a previous decision. In this case I can't say which is right for the bartender, but I can say the bartender had some regrets about the outcome of his decision, and this gave him an opportunity to see how things would be different.

I imagine the bartender not feeling any happier with the other outcome. He strikes me as the sort of fellow who is unhappy with his decision no matter what he chooses.

But if we come back to the narrator, the important thing isn't so much "selling out" or not, but making a decision he can live with and going forward with no regrets.


I would like to add one final thing--I know nothing about the music industry. I don't know if this is even a possible scenario. Also, greater success may give an artist more opportunities for creative endeavor and more time to devote to their craft, not less.

Starting over from scratch, essentially, may help this artist become more creative in the long run, but in the short time he has to spend more time worrying about where is next paycheck will come from.

But again, this was less about the music industry or selling out and more about the means by which a person came to a decision.

Alt 255 said...

Let me try to rephrase what I take away from this:

Both the band, who presumably go on to sell themselves well and keep making music at a higher industry level, and the narrator, going off to pursue his craft in aescetic peace, are going the right ways for who they are. They're making choices which will be best for them, each according to their own nature.

The bartender either made the wrong decision back when because he really would have been happier as a successful, albeit "sellout" artist; or he would be unhappy either way.

So, the main thing I take away from this is the idea that one has to make decisions that allign with one's nature, whether that means selling out or remaining obscure. I like that, of course.

Though my next question is, what if a person can't figure out her nature, or what if she's composed of competing compulsions such that she, like the bartender, will be dissatisfied in any case? Is dissatisfaction just her lot in life, so to speak?

Or maybe she just needs to learn to think more posivitely. Or maybe kill-off one of the two competing parts of her personality.

What do you think?

Ethereal_Chimp said...

would be possible to appease one aspect of the personality to such an extent that the other parts are no longer strong voices? Could a childhood dream of living on the beach be placated by the social satisfaction of living in a landlocked metropolis?

As for not knowing what will make oneself happy. Isn't that the curse of humanity? We spend so much time chasing things we can only hope will make us happy. Sometimes we're right and sometimes not, but it really is a big shot in the dark.

I liked the story, Handrew. An ending that causes you to go back and reframe the story is a great thing to experience.